Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Wild At Heart

"Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing... Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life; gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness; it should rather be an expression of breathless expectation"

-A quote from "My Utmost for His Highest"

This solidifies everything I've done with my life. I left home at 20 to start an unknown music career in LA, which led me to Oh, Sleeper. Had I never left, staying within the comforting walls of my parent's home, I would not have been ready for the physical, emotional, and spiritual battles to come. Understanding and preparing me for these battles will lead me to the man I hope to become; the man who will let the world feel his weight and who will make an impact.

Uncertainty is the very thing that has slowed me down and has kept me from being what I NEED to be. Never again will the mystery of my future stop me from becoming what I am meant for. By accepting that I know nothing of my future, I also accept that my future is in God's hands. He is the only one that can decide what I am here for and what I need to do. NOT me.

This takes me to what I have based my life upon: drumming. My talent was not by my own doing, however, it was by God's grace alone that I have been blessed with my gift and the position I have been put in. If I wasn't meant to be here, I wouldn't be here, plain and simple.

I am seeking God and I am finding him. Never have I felt his presence at this magnitude. Finally I am doing something right.

-Matt Davis